#tw: unreality

[theatsthetic]

Jesus Flesh. A short story.

[one-time-i-dreamt]

I 'woke up' with glass in my bed, then I 'woke up' with glass in my bed, then I 'woke up' with glass in my bed, then I woke up for real and there wasn't glass in my bed but I had kicked my duvet all the way off it (and still ended up checking that there wasn't any glass in the bed).

[schizospec-culture-is]

Schizospec culture is realizing people don’t normally struggle with “which reality is more real”

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[kaboom--bitch]

People really be like "endos are ableist that's why I hate them" yet they go into endogenic system tags and spout deliberately paranoia inducing shit like "no one believes you" and "they're all laughing at you" and "they all hate you" and act like it's normal and funny.

I don't give a fuck what you think is real or not, don't put that shit in tags without warnings! People with various fucking mental health conditions are very susceptible to that shit and you're literally just being an ass even if you didn't know that. Don't say shit that is clearly intended to induce paranoia because regardless of what you think of endos, there are other people in those tags and endogenic systems with other disorders. You're literally setting out to hurt people and acting like you're fucking fixing ableism.

At best you have no clue what the gravity of your words are. But it really just reads as you not knowing what ableism even fucking is and just wanting to spout as much hate as possible while using "defending actual DID systems" as your fucking scapegoat to try and get away with it. I see through your shit. Grow the fuck up. If you actually had any good points you'd be using them, and if you gave a single fuck about disabled people you wouldn't resort to calling us delusional or trying to induce paranoia.

[neoncityrain]

for the record, not all shiny hunting is immoral! in alola, most would not think twice if you hunt for a shiny yungoos, they are an invasive species. deerling and sawsbuck will eat all food in a location if not kept in check. do you think we are in this ecosystem just to not participate in it?

if you work with conservationalists, they may even help support any breeding projects you have if youre seeking something like a lapras! why do you think the populations been seeing a comeback, hm? HMMM???

plus, if youre hiking in the freeze-your-nuts-off mountain just for the chance to see a shiny sneasel, im pretty sure youll either get eaten by a beartic or youll know what youre doing enough to not kill the individuals you do meet.

some pokemon battle for fun! its enrichment! and even then simple observation can lead to finding shinies. can we stop the assumption that all shiny lovers are evil and unlawful, most of us are actually environment advocates! meet my beautiful shiny absol if youre so unsure, he wouldnt be here if i was destructive

[milimeters-morales]

the new spider-man game will allow miles and peter to reach through the screen, flip you off, and tell you to go fuck yourself each time you get them killed

[advocatersdevil]

THATS NOT YOU

THATS NOT YOU

THATS NOT YOU

THATS NOT YOU

[clangen-revelinblood]

my game of tabe4 is acting weird? i loaded a new-ish game but at some point when i was switching between characters "yew" got typed into fars textbox and then revel wouldnt stop crying and requesting something about eyes?? can anybody give advice on what to do next i really like revel :(

@tabe4 - this is typically a clangen blog but i binged your blog and am. OBSESSED... decided to do smth like a tabe4 au doodle?? auauuaheuheh,,

[skylessknights]

THE TWILIGHT SAGA: REBORN (dir. Catherine Hardwicke)

Many years after their confrontation with the Volturi, Bella and Edward have become extremely overprotective when it comes to their daughter, Renesmee, who is half human and half vampire. But their indecisive parenting has only pushed them farther away from each other and in doing so isolated Renesmee from both worlds that she wishes to be a part of.

Out of fear of, Edward takes his family to different states; only staying for more than five years in order to avoid suspicion from the locals. But when Renesmee’s untamed thirst for blood and wild instincts causes an incident at her newest school she is forced to return to her parents’ small town of Forks in order to ensure her safety. 

Amid the tumult, Renesmee seeks absolution and freedom, but her journey of self reflection sends her to La Push where the Quileute shape-shifters dwell. As she spends more time with the pack she is dragged into a power play between brothers and a hierarchical shift that could end the treaty between vampires and werewolves. 

⤷ I also made a Netflix edit based on this idea, feel free to check it out here

[jasontoddsguns]

Friends be like, “look at this old family heirloom I found,” and then pull out a wholeass cursed tome. Like. I was expecting a nice quilt.

[trashisstillhere]

Pheweee! After lotsa days and weeks of writing so much of this while being busy with the other stuff, I finally finished this!..

Meet!….

Hajime Igarashi…..? Uh who is this guy??

Don’t worry, you shall know soon! Believe it or not, he is important!.. how? Well…

Let’s just get to the story, shall we? :)

(was gonna just have these in the tags only but just to make extra sure-) warning/trigger warning: mentions of emotional abuse and a bit of psychical too, a lot of death along with mentions of blood and limbs. (It’s nothing TOO graphic or detailed but still adding this anyway!) And a bit of scopophobia and unreality too! (Adding these two as well just in case!)

Hopefully that should be all! I literally reread all of this just make fully sure! But don’t be afraid to tell me if there’s one I forgot or anything!

Okay, NOW let’s get to the story!

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Info/story?….: many, many years ago back in Japan in one not well known poor village….there was a young man by the name of ‘Hajime’. He was apart of the Igarashi family known for their excellent healing and medicine skills, helping anyone who needed serious aid during dark and hard times. No matter who the person was, even if they knew of them or not, every family member will always help tend to their injuries.

They all cared deeply for their jobs as healers, as they were pretty much the only ones experienced with it in their village. After all, it was the only thing they have done ever since their family was first born. It was their only purpose, They wouldn’t mind continuing it for the rest of their lives..

All except for Hajime.

He didn’t like it. He didn’t like that healing and medicine was the only thing he was mostly taught to do for the rest of his life, he didn’t want that to be his only purpose! I mean really?? Only help people nurse back to health for the rest of his life and so forth? Sounds so tiring! If his family really thought that he would only do this one thing over and over again and just accept this as his fate, they were WRONG!

And fortunately he had someone who agreed with that!… lately he has been starting to meet someone in his dreams, he had no clue who they were other then their appearance seemed to change every time. The only way he could tell it was only them was by looking straight into their eyes, those were always the same which made it quite easy to tell.

Plus to him, they looked so…beautiful.. so enticing, with those colors and the shape…he just couldn’t stop staring.

This unknown person seemed to always agree with his view of things, even said themselves that they would gladly help his own wishes come true if they could. It made him so glad to have someone support him with this!

Of course, his family wasn’t the same. They didn’t approve of him wanting to go out there and do more than his given job. As a way to keep him from possibly thinking any other ‘opportunities’ in life, they abused him, mostly mentally and emotionally. They made sure that his ‘selfish wishes’ were never gonna come true, tried to make him feel terrible, guilty for even thinking about any of it by saying things like:

“There are people out there who help keep our home safe, it’s only fair that we stay here to help them in return. How can you not understand that?”

“Foolish boy. How can you be so selfish?! We’re the only ones who can properly help anyone here with their injuries, help them stay alive! And you’re just going to refuse them like that!?“

“Do you really not care for our peoples lives out there!? Do you WANT that many to die!? Do you want so much of their cold blood covering your own hands!? Do you!?”

“Quit thinking so foolishly and keep helping them, Hajime! They need you!”

And so much more…

And this wasn’t the first time they did this too, oh no. They did similar things to this all to Hajime even BEFORE he thought about other things he could do in his life and also before he first met that unknown person in his dreams.

They were THAT strict.

And it only made Hajime dislike, no, HATE them. And grow so distant from them, even though he was still forced to spend time with them.

Soon, he had enough. He had enough of his family, enough of his only ‘fate’, enough of healing, enough of EVERYTHING!!

And those so called ‘people in need’? To hell with them! Both them and the so called ‘protectors’!! They’re not even grateful for the help they get, they’re lucky that his family barely fights back!

So after a lot of thinking and planning, Hajime decided he would be sneaking out at night when his family was deep asleep….

And that’s exactly what he did!

Every night, he would put on a cape with a hood and go outside on some new adventures, journeys he had never gotten to go on before. And boy did he have the time of his life!

During these adventures, he got to see things he never got to see before his entire life. He got to meet beings who weren’t human too, ones that he has heard of from stories he was told… yokai’s. Actual, living Yokai’s who all wandered around the place. Hajime was amazed by the sight of them, along with so much more he got to see outside. The pretty night sky, beautiful flowers, everything….

This was….incredible! How come his family never let him see this?

The unknown person in his dreams seemed to really like him doing this, telling him that this could be his chance to learn so much more than what he was taught by his family. He really agreed with that, he could learn so much more out there and refused to let go of this now!

He got to do this for as long as he could, sneaking out every night to see the beautiful wonders he would never have gotten the chance to see in day time again and again. He got to learn so much, even got to do more than just healing! Yes! More! So much more!… such as-

He never got caught..

Until one unfortunate day, he did.

One of his siblings caught him right in the act and before he could even beg for them not to tell the others, they already ran off to do just that, telling everyone in the family what he has secretly been doing. And just like that, his only chance of free possibilities and better future was stripped away in an instant.

He already felt like a bird inside a cage before but now, he REALLY was one. His whole family made sure of that for the next months that went by. Harsh punishments, treatments, lectures and even more guiltripping.

And during all of this, the unknown person in his dreams suddenly slowly started disappearing. He tried to beg for them not to go but they said in return that he doesn’t have to worry, because one day, they WILL come back and they WILL help him, give him the freedom he truly deserves.

But he never knew when they would and now, even the one and only person who supported him was gone.

All of that completely breaks him down till the point he could no longer take it and soon enough, he actually and finally accepted that this is it, this is really how his life will end…

Maybe he really is destined to just be a healer for this poor forsaken village until his death after all…

A part of him wanted to keep on fighting for his freedom but…how was he supposed to now? Especially with no one by his side? There was no other option…

what was the point?

“Oh…oh please….”

He would start to say in the dark room he was now forced to be in most of the time as his punishment, with only one small hole for a window to the outside world, holding his hands together as he repeated the same pleading words over and over again.

Not to his family….but to whoever may hear him outside…..just anyone….If there really was any one out there who could truly help any more..

“Please, anyone!…anyone who can hear me….whoever and whatever you may be…help me, help me out of this miserable prison I am trapped in! Get me away from the awful people I call a ‘family’! Away from this so called ‘home’ of mine!! I don’t want to live like this, I don’t want my life to end here like this!! Please!! Please help me!!!! I’ll do anything!! Anything!!!”

He begged and begged to no one, his voice slightly hoarse due to the tears that started running down his cheeks. His tone broken, filled with despair and desperation for anything that could really help him.

But no one came…

Even so, he still kept going. From being on his knees to getting on all fours on the cold floor with his hair all down, sniffling and sobs being heard from him as tears were seen falling down and landing on the hard wooden planks beneath him.

“Please….any angel, any god out there…if you’re truly out there…if you really exist…please, save me. Take me with you….away from this world…”

Silence would fill up the room right after, except for the continuous quiet crying of the man….

But then-

*BOOM!!*

A big explosion was heard from outside, right near where the man was.

Hajime tensed up at the very loud and sudden sound, his whole body immediately moving to sit back up on his knees. His still slightly teary eyes looked around, wondering what that was about.

But before he could say anything about it-

*BOOM!!!*

A even LOUDER explosion happens and this time, there were screams too, Screams of people outside terrified for their life.

“A DEMON!!!”

Someone out there yelled before another loud explosion happened yet again with more screams, along with sounds of unholy screeches and fire being started.

Hajime couldn’t believe his ears.

What was going on out there!?

He quickly got up on his feet and went over to the small ‘window’, his eyes widening at the sight he was greeted with. It was such a horrifying scene. So many flames surrounding the place and not just red, but green ones could be seen as well. Including some strange green smoke mixed with a few more colors such as red, yellow….So many people from his town screaming and running around as they were being chased by some..monsters??

There was also a lot of blood. Dark red, fresh blood, covering the once green grass. Not only were there blood but there also limbs, people’s limbs lying on the said blood.

The man watched everything happening all at once, his eyes so wide that they looked like they were about to pop out. He didn’t even have time to process it all at once because right when he got to see it all, ANOTHER explosion happened and this time it happened right near his home. And by near, I mean right near the empty room he was in.

The explosion destroyed a lot of his home from the inside, it also completely teared down the entire wall in the room, making a big opening for him. He coughed and coughed as smoke surrounded him, immediately trying to run outta there without letting himself get hurt by any fire near him. Thankfully he was able to escape from there without any serious harm on him, yet he still coughed a bit.

Now he got to take an even better look outside, along with getting just a small ounce of fresh cold air from all the smoke he tried not to get in his mouth and nose. There just seemed to get even more ugly from here, so much more blood and limbs already covering more of the ground along with the grass being pretty much burned to a crisp. He looked back to his home, seeing how much of it was now ruined and in flames as well.

And there, he also saw a few bodies that were sticking out of some of the rubble and destruction. They looked familiar…

And that’s when he realised that…

Those belonged to his family.

His family was now DEAD.

Meaning that this village no longer had anyone to help people with healing their terrible injuries and such, expect HIM.

He should be feeling dread and horror by this sight, he should maybe even start crying out loud for his now dead parents, siblings, aunts, uncles, all of them…but he didn’t. Instead, he just glared at the big bloody mess of them before he kept moving away.

“Serves them right…it’s what they deserve…”

With the Igarashi family now gone for good, Hajime was all alone so he had to try leaving by himself. But how was he supposed to do that? There were so many of these monsters going wild around the place, he might soon end up dead just like the rest already!

One monster already seemed to have noticed him from afar, its feet already starting to run towards him. It was so quick that he barely had time to react. Yup, this was it, he too was gonna die-

Wait, hold up. No. It just….ran past him. And went for some other guy instead. Why? He was right there, why didn’t it just go for him first?

He noticed that no other monsters went for him either, even if they all saw him too.

This is….strange. Yet it gave him relief.

The man just went back to looking around him, still seeing nothing but bloody messes and destruction along with the strange smoke all around. The whole village was in ruins. He should be feeling scared for his life yet….he didn’t. I mean he WAS shocked about this sudden events but looking at everyone dying now, he didn’t feel a single bit of pity or sorrow. He didn’t feel sad for the many losses that occurred.

he didn’t feel….ANYTHING.

Just when he almost got lost deep in thought, something suddenly appeared in front of him, catching him off guard. When he looked up, he gasped.

It was the unknown person! The same one he had always seen in his dreams! With a new different form once again….still having those enticing, beautiful eyes…

“Y-you…I-it’s…i-it’s you!…”

He stuttered out, slowly inching closer to them.

“Y-You’re the o-one I…that I-i saw I-in my dreams!!…a-are you r-real-“

“Of course I am, my friend…”

Hajime’s eyes widened at the sound of their voice, even that sounded the same as the one he has always heard in his dreams! It REALLY was them!! He couldn’t believe it!

“I told you that I would come back for you, to give you the freedom you rightfully deserve….you remember that, don’t you? I have heard your pleads far from here, how you wanted to no longer be here in this world…now you will finally have what you truly desired and begged for today….”

The young man didn’t need any more confirmation then that to know that this person right here, truly was his one and only ‘friend’ in his dreams, the only one to have supported his choices and his wishes….

And that they’re the one who killed his family, got him out of that dark and cold room he have been stuck in for almost weeks and maybe even MONTHS. Destroyed this village, this so called ‘home’ of his….all for HIM.

His eyes suddenly started tearing up, tons of tears running down his cheeks nonstop. This was all still so unexpected yet he couldn’t help but feel even more relief than ever before. Even joy.

This unknown person had come here and did all of this just for him.

To help him. Save him.

Maybe they were really an angel or even a god themselves…

“Everything will be okay, my friend…..”

He felt a hand, their hand, cup his cheek in such a gentle way. It felt…nice… even though their ‘skin’ felt cold to the touch, it still just felt so welcoming, he couldn’t help but melt into it.

“Will you…” he paused for a moment, glancing up at them. “Will you really get me out of here?…”

“Of course..”

“Even….even give me a new form? Something much better than…this?”

“A new form? Is that what you really want as well?…”

Hajime thought about it for a moment, looking down at himself. Before nodding.

“Yes, yes please!…I just…I not only want to leave this hellhole but also change myself to the point I no longer am this weak, pathetic human…flesh….i apologise if it’s too much to ask-“

The person shushed him. “Oh no, not at all. I will gladly help you with that..”

“R-really??….”

the person nodded this time. “Yes, I have the ability to do so. I can grant any wish you want and if this is what you truly desire as well, I’ll gladly grant it. No other mortal deserves as much as you do, my friend….”

Hajime sniffled.

“…thank you….thank you so much…..”

“You’re very welcome, you won’t regret it….now…all you have to do… is to look right into my eyes…and just focus on them, no where else….just. At. Me..”

The young man did just that, looking straight to their eyes and no where else. Only on THEM. As he did, he felt…something… a new feeling he never felt before, it felt…strange…strange but…good? No, amazing….no! Wonderful!

“May your entire being and mind succumb….”

And before he knew it.

“To CHAOS.”

Everything suddenly went green…and then darkness took over….

………..

“This new form is incredible, master! I still can’t thank you enough for it!”

“It is pleasant to hear that, my friend…”

“….hey master…may I get one more wish granted?….could I…have a new name?..”

“A….New name…why of course you can…what is this new name you’d like to be called by for now on?”

“…………Kurai. That is what I want my new name to be…”

Yes…..it is much better than the old one…

Hajime Igarashi was now nothing but a lost memory.

One that HE no longer wanted to be referred to as, EVER.

After all…

It doesn’t matter anymore.

[schizospec-culture-is]

(questioning) schizospec culture is being really paranoid about social media and feeling like everyone is stalking you and trying to dox you but still wanting to share your art online

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[sincerelynotyours]

Is this thing up? I suppose it is, since I can see all the other... blogs.

Hello, I am Bryan. This is test number 781, whoever - whatever you are, nice to meet you.

[oceanicwayfarer]

AMA

My Culture & Arts teacher is cuddling with his giant hybrid warlord boyfriend in the fields nearly Jade Mountain.

Winter and I have joined the pile.

[cosmerelists]

Help the Shadesmar Tourism Board Choose a New Slogan!

Citizens of the Cosmere--or wherever else this message has ended up--we of the Shadesmar Tourism Board (Roshar branch) need YOUR help!

We are trying to increase tourism to the lovely and unique realm of Shadesmar. Which of the following slogans do you think will be most effective in accomplishing this goal?

Please help us by choosing YOUR favorite!

[throwaway-yandere]

the otome game is very well made and i had a lotta fun (it was more fun rejecting diluc ehehehe)

it was super fun! and i was so invested i forgot to save my game

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🪽 okazaki-dev-team Follow

[link to the yan!diluc otome SAGAU game]

Aww shucks! Thank you so much, 🐌 anon! We appreciate the support! Don't worry, I'm sure Diluc wouldn't mind if you forgot to save, just come back if his route gets finished ❤️ We'll continue making it a full game if there's enough interest!

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🎫 ansy-tea Follow

If more people played the game I'd probably go crazy and make a secret Scara and Haitham route for shts and giggles ngl lmfao

⬛ faceless-ayato Follow

W h y a m I n o t r o m a n c e a b l e y e t?

🎫 ansy-tea Follow

Bleuuughhh. Please boss, it's not like you and this ayato are the same person-